Quirky2212

I am wondering if people can give me some suggestions for when I get to the point right before I panic and do something foolish and impulsive, which I when I get myself into trouble and do things that I regret - say things I wish I hadn't said, cry in public, etc... So - when your body feels like it's all wrapped up like a mummy, and you can't breath, and you can't move, and you can't think, and you can't talk, and you want to scream but you can't, and you want to reach out and ask someone - anyone - to hold on to you and take care of you, just for now, but you need to be an adult, because you know you are not a child, and you know you will be ok if you can just make it though the next moment, or ten, or a hundred, but for this moment you are completely alone - WHAT DO YOU DO???

mumofanna

oh Quirky. ((((((HUGS))))))). I think I may know what you are talking about, that is exactly how I was for the past two years... slowly picking up now.

I just became so overwhelmed with everything. I was so tired in my spirit (and I am usually very plucky and happy go lucky) but I was exhausted of 'fighting' for everything that others are able to take for granted.

Are you by any chance having panic attacks...have you given this any thought at all?

Or could it be that you are depressed and are feeling so overwhelmed so that when something happens, you feel that you can barely cope as you are already dealing with so much that your head feels like it is going to burst?

Quirky (((((HUGS))))))) again, talk to your doctor.

The only way that I get through this on a daily basis (with the aid of medication, as I don't think that my body can replenish the serotonin quick enough...is by finding somewhere quiet and meditating...

I meditate on a daily basis.... as

I don't know which empties more quickly... the serotonin (feel good hormone for dealing with stress etc?) in my brain.....or my purse as the kids are going out to school! lol

I just keep topping up on both... serotonin and cash machine... and watch it all disappear as quickly as it came lol...

I am a Christian, and I am not going to push my faith, nor am I going to get into a debate as to why I meditate, (after all I wouldn't ask you to explain why you dye your hair a certain colour lol ) but if anyone is interested in how or what I meditate on I will happily let you know in a private post....

Having said that, if you are not a Christian, meditating on all the beauty of this Earth will help... be it focusing on your favourite flower.... the waves of the sea brushing over you etc....

For me it is my faith....

Quirky, best of luck with everything, please see your doctor...

There is nothing worse than feeling like a scared vulnerable child who needs to be looked after, when you have others who are depending on you.

My heart is with you on this one

With much love from

Elizabeth

[Updated on 11/20/2009 12:46 PM]

Quirky2212

Thanks Elizabeth. My medication is a bit off, so I'm sure that is probably a factor. There is no feeling worse for me than the one described above. I don't often feel that bad, but when I do, it's so difficult to put one foot in front of the other. I'm always curious how others manage when they feel that way. I know I can't be the only one who feels like that sometimes.

Louisa

I was going to respond, but hit the respond button accidentally before even able to think. Sorry. Maybe later. I bet there are so many people here who can relate and think of what helps them. -Louisa

Tivah Brown

Quirky, Seji asked me to tell you what she figured out last night. She often got upset and said or did things she regretted, even if small simple things. But last night she set up her room so that it felt like a "safe room". She stayed in there until she felt calm. Then she felt much better and realized that whenever she feels herself getting upset she's going to be able to go into that safe room to calm down and think better before taking any action or making any decisions.

Perhaps this would work for you?

Tivah

Quirky2212

Tivah, please thank Seji for me. That is a great idea. I often use my car as my "safe place". I thought of Seji yesterday when I felt terrible because I actually left where I was, went home, got under a blanket, and pet my dog. While I was all cuddled up I thought of Gracie and laughed. I think she is a therapy dog for many, through Seji's stories.

Elizabeth - thank you as always for your kind words. You are always a support.